It has been a great two days for the Mistress. About a week ago I had one of the worst sessions in my life, so I have been in desperate need of something really good. I did a double with Julia Steele and the guy was a mega prick. Total control freak. He tried to dictate everything from our outfits, to the way we walked, and even the way we held implements. It does not offend me when people make requests or share fantasies. In fact, I like that, but this guy was controlling to the point of insult. He was showing Julia how to hold and swing a cane, (can you believe it?), and she finally glared at him and said, “Are you kidding me?” After he left, Julia told me that she almost asked him to leave. I wish she had. It was her client and her home, so it would have been inappropriate for me to tell him to get out. I told Julia that this guy needed to hire two bimbo’s with no personality or mind. He would have been much happier bossing empty shells around than two very strong willed dominant women. 

 

Fortunately, I rarely have bad sessions so I generally stay excited and charged about my work, but it is amazing how one bad experience can take the wind right out of me. I really needed something fun this week and fun was handed to me on a silver platter. Two silver platters actually. 

 

The first “get me back in the saddle and loving BDSM again” session happened yesterday. It was a new client so I was skeptical, but we chatted on the phone, he seemed very friendly and I agreed to see him. Thankfully, because I was planning on taking most of the week off. 

 

He shows up and was nervous but within 5 minutes, I realized we had great chemistry. What is chemistry? I think it is the way two people respond to each other. This was his first experience, so he was only into sensual domination and that was exactly what I needed. I enjoy the crazier sessions, but the sensual sessions seem to balance and recharge me. I am obviously a highly sensual woman and although I express my sensuality in every session, sometimes it takes a lesser role while control and dominance takes on the main role. That’s fine, but sometimes I just want to be sexy. There is a song called “Just Let Me Be a Woman” and that’s what sensual sessions do for me. It is not that I am not a woman during my more dominant sessions, but the dominant sessions have a very different feminine sexuality feel to them. The sensual sessions take away the pressure of maintaining constant control, and I know most of you are in constant control throughout the day, so you can appreciate the fact that sometimes I just want to relax and “roll” with the vibes. 

 

My newbie and I are really getting into each other. I love to tease and nothing pleases me more than an amazing response to my teasing. Flattery will get you everywhere with me. He tells me I am a dangerous woman and I know exactly what he means by this. He is slowly beginning to relax and get into that zone of letting go and enjoying the moment. Vulnerable. Completely stripped bare of inhibitions and utterly free. And the more he responds to my advances, the more I respond to him. It is like dancing in perfect step with each other.

 

I will not bore you with all of the details, although I am more than certain you wish I would, but I will describe one of the highlights for you. It is a given that tease and denial ranks number one in my book. One of my teasing games is coming in close and barely brushing lips. I love “tease kissing”. It leaves a sense of great longing and wanting. One of my biggest peeves is when the teased tries kissing me back. They completely miss the experience of the subtle and powerful tease. “I just want to feel those lips against mine, but I cannot have it.” Some spoil the moment of lust and yearning with instant gratification. My newbie was right on point with the power of wanting yet not obtaining. Gazing into his eyes, I would slowly move in, lips parted, lightly brush against his lips before moving away. He would gasp and say “I am trying so hard to behave myself.” And that’s it right there. “I want you so badly but I am not going to take you.” It is maddening. Deliciously and wonderfully maddening. This is how you create passion. If everything was handed to you, you would not find passion. It is passion that people miss in their lives. Taking and taken for granted, the passion is lost. Passion is longing. Passion is in the mystery. Passion is in the tease. In this session, I was able to create passion and as a result, felt an overwhelming sense of passion within myself. 

 

Today, I was recharged after my horrific experience with Mr. “I want to control my pro dommes.” I received a call from an old playmate who I have not seen in a year and I cannot describe how excited I was to be re-aquatinted with this kinky bastard. I was finally in the mood for sensual, controlling, dirty and nasty BDSM slut play. We started out slowly so I could get in touch with my dominant side again. Mr. Control did not take that away from me. He just burnt me out because I had to exert an enormous amount of control over someone who clearly had no desire to be controlled or dominated. My sensual session energized me and I was ready to rock.

 

Because I loved the kissing game so much, we started with some highly intimate and erotic torture kissing teasing, sensual cock tease, light nipple biting and sexy breast and ass worship. As soon as I heard “I have missed you,” I was wet and back in the game and ready for fun. Tied up, the tease and denial steadily increased. The best part was his reactions. His reactions made me want to tease him all the more. I understand that some people take a long time to warm up and let go, but try to see it my way. I am teasing and tormenting you and you just stand there. I don’t know what is going on with you or where to go from there. I am teasing and tormenting you, and you respond, good or bad. Now I know what is going on with you and where to go. I start going in the right direction per your reaction and what happens to me? I am beyond turned on. And what happens to you? You start going out of your mind. Getting into the zone and letting go.

 

It is funny that some many people, including pro dommes, think that being a dominant is all about taking and doing whatever you want. Yes, we have fantasy roles, but I promise you, the best submissive/ dominant exchanges are 50/50. It is a constant give and take. One person may be committing the acts, but the active person does not receive gratification until the inactive person reacts. Submissives have just as much power over me as I do them, just in an inactive yet responsive way. If you want me to have fun during our sessions, just let go and respond freely. Good or bad, I know where to go. I am a natural dominant and I know how to get to the good place and once we get there together, the experience will be amazingly intense for both of us.

 

My old playmate ended up on all fours with me teasing his asshole. Very slowly. Just rubbing the outside. Nothing inserted. Like honey, I wanted our time to drip by and I wanted his desire to be taken by me to slowly build until he could not stand it any longer. I do not know how much time passed. With every caress, his back arched lower and ass tilted higher. Still, no insertion. He began to beg through moaning. There is nothing more primal than non-verbal expressions and grunts. Moans, grunts and facial expressions were our first forms of communication and to this day non verbal expression are universal. I knew it was time. I would have used a strap on but I craved a more intimate exchange. Using my fingers allows me to feel the orgasm. There is something about human contact. A dildo will never replace a flesh. I love strap on play, but it leaves me detached. I cannot feel the orgasm. I cannot feel the prostate getting hard and pressing down. I can see the cum, but that’s all. I wanted to be part of his orgasm, to feel it happening, to feel what I was doing and how I was controlling him.

 

Still on all fours, his balls tied down so he could not escape me, I fucked his ass with one finger while teasing his cock and balls. I could feel every part of his body reacting to me. Think about that for a minute. His body, inside and out, is reacting to me and what I am doing to him. What a rush. Yes, it is a power rush. But it is also a power exchange. We both have the opportunity to live our fantasies, to fully enjoy ourselves and to embrace our kinkier sexuality. When he finally came, I felt like I was cumming too. I didn’t even touch myself during the session. I had my cat suit on the entire time, yet I felt like I had had an orgasm through his orgasm. 

 

Mr. Control Freak will never know what it is like to let go and have an experience like that one. Intense passion and longing. Many people order and take, and they will never understand or know the power of letting go. These sessions were similar yet different. One was strictly sensual and the other involved kinkier sides to BDSM such as cock and ball bondage, nipple clamps and slut play. But both men had the courage to let go, relax, respond and enjoy themselves. That is what makes me enjoy my sessions. That is what gets the Mistress wet.

 

 

Here are two questions for my clients/ submissives:

 

1. Why do you come to see me? 

 

2. How do you feel after you see me?

 

Feel free to ask me questions as well.

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